In my head ~

Your Love is Always in My Drug ~

Maybe I need some rehab,
Or maybe just need some sleep
I've got a sick obsession,
I'm seeing it in my dreams

I'm looking down every alley,
I'm making those desperate calls
Im staying up all night hoping,
Hit my head against the walls

What you've got boy is hard to find
Think about it all about it all the time
I'm all strung up my heart is fried
I just cant get you off my mind

Because your love, your love, your love, is my drug
Your love your love your love
I said your love, your love, your love, is my drug
Your love your love your love

Won't listen to any advice, mamma's telling me to think twice
But left to my own devices i'm addicted its a crisis!

My friends think I've gone crazy, my judgment is getting kinda hazy
My status is gonna be affected if I keep it up like a love sick crackhead

happy (:

hey,
today just wanna tell you guys that i didn't make it through the audition
but its ok im kinda a little upset but at the same time i'm happy cause
during the school concert I won't have to rush and change to my regular costumes.
and also i can hang out with my friends and take pictures XD
*Girls just wanna have fun*lol
anyways just wanna tell no worries at all.
oh yeah,i would like to congratz those who got through.
awesome job guys.
well gonna shop for a dress later.*to wear during the school concert
hahaz,im so gonna love doing that !
well,updates in school.
hmm..everything is fine.
friends are always getting better and better.
ouh yeah,i have two marketeers with me now.
that is My dearest *Sabrina* and Tashwin.
yeah,they are a really good friend of mine.though
harshhh,i always get to leave out stress whenever im with one of them or even better both of them !
love you guys, ♥
XD

-Theebha-

Dancing =)

hey,
today i went to school to practice my dance to prepare for the school concert.
well,it was fun dancing with my buddies but it was also really tiring dough.
haha,i would wanna thank my dearest friend,Dhanya for teaching me and ma friends
the steps,she is such a smart and talented girl.
Thank youuu Dhanya babe.
well tomorrow gonna meet up with tammy,renesse and my dear rachel.
we're gonna practice like hell.
haha xD
randomness,tomorrow until Tuesday so gonna practice.
hope we get through the audition !!!
if we don't then we just gotta perform during the feast day concert.
haha,at least we still got the chance to perform to show our talents .
i'm extremely excited but a bit scared.
haha,facing to the teachers during auditions..err that's like so damn scary.
gahahaha xD ! well just need to keep on smiling and be confident.
haha (;
well i guess that's what i'm blogging for today,tc !
love ya !

-Theebha-

cry.

I'll always remember
it was late afternoon
It lasted forever
But ended so soon
You were all by yourself
Staring up at a dark gray sky
I was changed

In places no one will find
All your feelings so deep inside
It was there that I realized
That forever was in your eyes
The moment I saw you cry


It was late in September
And I'd seen you before (and you were)
You were always the cold one
But I was never that sure
You were all by yourself
Staring up at a dark gray sky
I was changed

In places no one will find
All your feelings so deep inside (deep inside)
It was there that I realized
That forever was in your eyes
The moment I saw you cry

I wanted to hold you
I wanted to make it go away
I wanted to know you
I wanted to make your everything
Alright
In places no one will find
All your feelings so deep inside (deep inside)
It was there that I realized
That forever was in your eyes
The moment I saw you cry

I think i saw you cry
The moment i saw you cry
I wanted to know you... :(

i feel you ~

People always talk about the moment they fell for their best friend. There never was a moment for me and mine. I've always loved him of course everyone loves their friends, but with him it's different. I can't explain it, it's just...different.
*You think you know me well as a friend...You say you understand me...You claim you can read my mind, predict my moods, sense my feelings...So why don't you realize that I’m so in love with you? You're not my friend; friends don't look at each other like we do..
You walk by me everyday and say hello. Everyday you take time out to listen to me. You talk to me, smile at me, laugh with me, and have fun with me. Well I talk, smile and laugh too, but inside I'm hurting. Deep down it hurts to be with you because I love you and you are only a friend

It hurts to fall in love with a friend. You keep on hiding your feelings, avoiding it as mush as possible, till you cry your heart out of fear of losing a friend and a love you never really had.

.....its been like this for a quite some times.....

Destiny.

People lie, and people cry,
But our friendship will never die.
For I will always be your friend,
Im with you till the very end.

Through the ups and the downs,
Through the leaps and the bounds,
Im here for you,
Through good and blue.

No matter what I love ya gutts,
Even if ya are a klutz :P
Friends are friends, but you are more,
You are my brother who I adore.

Life’s to short to have no fun,
So get out there and get some, hunn! :P
Things in life will tare you apart,
But you just need to follow your heart.

I love you man,
Through everythanng!
You simply are the best,
Better than the rest! :P:P

i wish i could.

I wish you knew how i felt,
how when i look at you i smile and wish you were mine.
I wish i could tell you how i felt,
instead of keeping it inside me feeling trapped knowing you probly have no idea how in love with you i am.
I wish i knew how u feel,
instead of guessing and going by all the signs which could be fake and leading me on.
I wish you felt the same way,
when you seen me you would be as happy too see me as i always am too see you trying too luv to the fullest.
I wish i could stop wishing and it were true,
the next time i see you, you would look at me the same way i look at you, and feel the same i feel just going for it and willing to give it my all thinking your the one and that can't be changed. You would ask me out finally and i can say wishing on a falling star works. Until that day i guess i will have to keep wishing. But all i know is that i love you and that won't change.

why is it so hard to let it go ?

I've asked a million people this question but none of them seem to truly know
a simple " why is it so hard to let go"
so many different answers which one is right
i swear this is the only thing on my mind at night
my heart is bruised, but thats nothing new.
Its just part of my life.
Another stab to the heart, but by a new knife.
I thought she was different for the rest
she was everyhting to me she was the best.
i was wrong becasue she was ecactly that same
but she's not to balme.
i blame myself for moving to fast.
I tried to hard to make us last.
I changed who i truly was just to make her happy.
And i was repaid with her leaving me.
Now im sitting here feeling dumb
while she's out there having all kinds of fun.
So as I sit around moaping and saying how life is so unfair
they know that your heart broken and they dont seem to even care
it hurts to know the one you still love no longer loves you
So I'm left with the same question for you.
"why is it so hard to let go?"
and the answer i now know
There is no right or wrong answer to this simple question
cause the answer the individual is looking for
only they know....

Problems i'm going through now.

basically i have a friend who has a really flirtatious nature we are good friends and we have a running joke involving winking (yeah dont ask) but basically to an outsider it could seem kind of dodgy. im single and he has a girlfriend hes not exactly faithful but hes a really good friend to me and i barely know his girlfriend as she took an instant disliking to me the first time we met and so i wouldnt really ever say to her that he has cheated. i only see him as a friend and nothing more but hes told me that shes overly jealous and convinced there is something going on. shes a bit of a nutter in all honesty and would probably kick my ass if she had the chance and now she has just added me on facebook i havent accepted yet what should i do!!???

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“The longer I live, the more I realize the impact of attitude on life. Attitude, to me, is more important than facts. It is more important than the past, the education, the money, than circumstances, than failure, than successes, than what other people think or say or do. It is more important than appearance, giftedness or skill. It will make or break a company... a church... a home. The remarkable thing is we have a choice everyday regarding the attitude we will embrace for that day. We cannot change our past... we cannot change the fact that people will act in a certain way. We cannot change the inevitable. The only thing we can do is play on the one string we have, and that is our attitude. I am convinced that life is 10% what happens to me and 90% of how I react to it. And so it is with you... we are in charge of our Attitudes.”

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I believe the single most significant decision I can make on a day-to-day basis is my choice of attitude. It is more important than my past, my education, my bankroll, my successes or failures, fame or pain, what other people think of me or say about me, my circumstances, or my position. Attitude keeps me going or cripples my progress. It alone fuels my fire or assaults my hope. When my attitudes are right, there is no barrier too high, no valley too deep, no dream too extreme, no challenge too great for me.

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Don't wait....

Don't wait until everything is just right. It will never be perfect. There will always be challenges, obstacles and less than perfect conditions. So what. Get started now. With each step you take, you will grow stronger and stronger, more and more skilled, more and more self-confident and more and more successful.”

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You control your future, your destiny. What you think about comes about. By recording your dreams and goals on paper, you set in motion the process of becoming the person you most want to be. Put your future in good hands - your own.”

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We are friends and I do like to pass the day with you in serious and inconsequential chatter. I wouldn't mind washing up beside you, dusting beside you, reading the back half of the paper while you read the front. We are friends and I would miss you, do miss you and think of you very often.

Love ~

When the love of your life leaves you feel like your life has been shattered and that your heart has been shredded into pieces.

We have all been there. Whether it was a short relationship or the break up of a long term marriage the pain is still there. That ultimate grief you feel when you have lost someone you thought you would be with forever.

With every break up there is someone who is devestated whilst the other just seems to move without a second thought.

Whilst going through a break up your true feelings seem to come to light. Sometimes, those are
feelings you never even knew you had.
These are some break up quotes that describe some of the feelings you may be having at the moment. These quotes show us that we are not alone and that there are others who feel our
pain.
Each of us will have our own interpretation of each quote based on our feelings but here is what each quote means to me...

***"I can't talk to you anymore, it's not that I am mad at you, it's just that when I talk to you I realize how much I love you and when I realize how much I love you, I realize I can't have you and that makes me love you even more."

my wishes are..

Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky
Are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now
Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky
Are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now

I could use a dream or a genie or a wish
To go back to a place much simpler than this
Cause after all the partyin' and smashin' and crashin'
And all the glitz and the glam and the fashion
And all the pandemonium and all the madness
There comes a time where you fade to the blackness
And when you're staring at that phone in your lap
And you hoping but them people never call you back
But that's just how the story unfolds
You get another hand soon after you fold
And when your plans unravel
And they sayin' what would you wish for
If you had one chance
So airplane airplane sorry I'm late
I'm on my way so don't close that gate
If I don't make that then I'll switch my flight
And I'll be right back at it by the end of the night

warnings.

Don't watch lame tv shows,this days even if yoyr bored.
cause if you do then your such a madoxx . seriously.
i have a friend who does this so many times and seriously she has no life.
everyday when i call her she 'll be like ouh im watching some random tv shows.means its lame.
extremely lame,until she like act like one random lame person.
pupils get annoyed with her attitude.
well anws.just don't do such stuff like that.xD
bad thinking. (:
(btw who ever say Spongebob square pants is a lame show,your a suckup)

-Theebs-

I miss you.

I see forever when I look in your eyes
You're all I ever wanted, I always want you to be mine
Let's make a promise 'till the end of time
We'll always be together, and our love will never die

So here we are face to face and heart to heart
I want you to know we will never be apart
Now I believe that wishes can come true
'Cause I see my whole world
I see only you

When I look into you eyes
I can see how much I love you
And it makes me realize
When I look into your eyes
I see all my dreams come true
When I look into your eyes

I've looked for you all of my life
Now that I've found you, we will never say goodbye
I can't stop this feeling and there's nothing I can do
'Cause I see everything, when I look at you

When I look into your eyes
We will always be together, and our love will never die
When I look into your eyes
I see all my dreams come true
When I look into your eyes
When I look into your eyes
<3>

-Theebs-

Spain ~

awesome.
Spain won to Germany in your face German.
haha anws well am looking forward when is the finals.
hope Spain wins.
and says the octopus Spain is gonna win.woootz
Go Spain !!! xD
well they won twice or thrice . haha (:
but hope the win this year ,officially this year 2010.
everybody will be proud of Spain.
my dearest Torres.
haha love you,heart you.
and also the other players.
saddie Germany,but its ok nxt four years kk. (:
i still do miss Brasil.
damn.why did they even loose.arghhh.
mad and pissed.
at neatherlands.
why do they have to be so rough !!! ?
am confused and ......
anyways my only hope now is now you ,Spain.
just please win,try your best .
Torres ♥♥♥.
well just gonna see the match.

-Theebs-

school computer lab.

hey guys.

im here in my school computer lab with my friends.

having fun by going on9.teachers don't really mind.

so yeah xD

so hopefully today there will be practice,for my dance.

i also hope things will go out well ..

*

today so far nothing bad happened.

and really need to thank god because today i don't have Geo test.

and yeah also thank god because i never got scolding by my maths teacher .didn't bring my book. xD,

anws i actually finally finished all my projects.

sivik and sejarah.lalala.

anws blogging later,gtg bb.

-Theebs-